Wednesday, March 28, 2012

The evaluation of me

"Not only is women's work never done, the definition keeps changing."~Bill Copeland

I'm a work in progress. I don't mean that in the physical sense. I'm just a girl. See, I have flaws like everyone and change has to come to better yourself, if need be. I think throughout the years we evolve as women, it's only natural. We go through hurts and gain wisdom. We go through sadness and find joy. We are constantly growing into who we are meant to be. 

As we change emotionally and mentally, we also change physically. Our bodies change. We get skinnier, fatter, our skin changes, as does our hair. Our features change yearly, more womanly as each passing spring. It's the natural evaluation into womanhood. 

Since I started blogging three years ago I've changed. When I first started blogging I was 9 months pregnant with my 2nd son. I was fat (ok, pregnant) and tired. I had a 16 month old and had no time to pamper myself. Looking back from then to now, I've changed, big time. People can say I've had every plastic surgery under the sun until they are blue in the face, but it's not true. I've learned and grown beauty wise. My skincare has changed, my make up has changed, my hair has changed. I've learned so much from this community and educated myself on products.

One of my biggest pet peeves is when people write up that I've had this or that done as if it's the truth and they know it. One of the biggest things is my nose. It goes back to learning. I've learned what angles work and which don't. You will never see me take a picture from my right side or straight on. The left side of my nose does have that "plastic surgery" look as they say because it's straight and thin but my right side... oh goodness no. It was broken and pushed more to the left. I'm not opposed to fixing it and if/when I do, I'm not ashamed! :)

One of the biggest changes is my teeth. I was gifted 10 upper veneers through a pageant I did. It was such a dream come true. Never in my wildest dreams would I ever thought I'd be given something as awesome as this. I think the vote is 50/50... some people like them and some people think I look like Mr. Ed. I'm not bothered. I like them. It's a HUGE difference from where I started. It takes getting used to, I'm not going to lie, but when I look at old pictures, I feel peace. That's all that matters in my soul. 

The most important changes you can make are from within. I am constantly trying to figure myself out. I'm one complex, cookie. One of my favorite things to do is take personality tests and analyze who I am more and reflect on that and give myself a break once in a while. One of my favorite tests is a letter system by Myers-Briggs. I've had 5 people (including myself) take this test and everyone's results are spot on. It's very eye opening. I'm a ISFJ. :) 
20 years old in Guatemala

So, anyhow, props to you if you made it through all that mumbo-jumbo. I just wanted to write to everyone that most importantly, find peace within yourself. Be ok with you but at the same time, it's ok to change, too. Be ok with the core of who you are and if something bothers you, fix it. If you are struggling with skin issues, be proactive to change it. Try things until something works. If you feel washed out and drab, experiment with fun hair colors. Change isn't always a bad thing. Change can be growing into who you want to be and it can be freeing. 

All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another.

Anatole France

Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts.

Arnold Bennett

If we don't change, we don't grow. If we don't grow, we aren't really living.
Gail Sheehy


A somewhat natural kinda look FOTD

Hey, beautiful guys and gals!
I filmed a video tutorial on this look but haven't been able to post it. I tried to do a voice over and have come to the conclusion I need a microphone is get decent sound. Boo. 

This is a "somewhat" natural kind of look... I say "somewhat" because even though to me it doesn't look like a ton of make up, the list is long. Beauty is subjective though. To someone that wears no make up this looks like I've caked it on, to someone who wears smokey eyes and red lips, this is natural. For me this is the "better version of my self make up"! :) Cheers!

Products used:
Estee Lauder DW Foundation in Desert Beige, NYX Bronzer #2, NYX Creme blush in Boho Chic, a tap of Laura Mercier Rose Rendezvous on the cheek bone, NYX e/s trio in Nude/Taupe/Dark Brown... I used Nude all over the lids and Dark Brown in the crease, I also used the dark brown on my brows, MUFE Aqua Liner #10, L'Oreal Voluminous Mascara in Carbon Black, NYX lipgloss in Natural (one of my faves). 

Hair: Nume 1" clipless wand. (one of my favorite beauty items on the face of the earth).

Hope you all have a fantastic day, night, afternoon... where ever you may be. May your heart be filled with the peace that you are who you are for a reason and you are worthy, beautiful, whole, and perfect just the way you are. 

On my end of the world, sweet dreams (2:18am... sheesh. Bedtime).